I'm not sure when dad told mom, or if he ever did. He didn't tell me until he decided I was "old enough to handle the truth." Which was ten years after he left us. Mom's always been of the opinion that I should at least pretend to be okay. I know she loves me, but... I don't know if she doesn't understand or doesn't believe me. Either way.
I know they got divorced because of me. They both think that isn't true, but their fights almost always started out about me. How I was being difficult or mean because I didn't automatically buy into all those lies people tell kids. And it seemed like the rest of the world agreed with that assessment, so I just stopped trying after a while. If the world was going to be horrible, I'd just stay home.
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[Another drink.]
I'm not sure when dad told mom, or if he ever did. He didn't tell me until he decided I was "old enough to handle the truth." Which was ten years after he left us. Mom's always been of the opinion that I should at least pretend to be okay. I know she loves me, but... I don't know if she doesn't understand or doesn't believe me. Either way.
I know they got divorced because of me. They both think that isn't true, but their fights almost always started out about me. How I was being difficult or mean because I didn't automatically buy into all those lies people tell kids. And it seemed like the rest of the world agreed with that assessment, so I just stopped trying after a while. If the world was going to be horrible, I'd just stay home.